I JUST VIDEO CHATTED WITH SAM FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!!
It's the first time since I left Durban in November that I've like seen him animated, and it was SO MUCH FUN! I just, I just can't express how sad and happy you can be about something so tiny. The picture wasn't even great but I could see him smile, and make silly facial expressions and hear him make fun of me all at once for the first time in so long. I absolutely, 100% miss that face and just everything. Absolutely everything that comes along with it. Ugh, it's so bittersweet. I only spoke to him for like 15 minutes, that's all the time we could really have. In South Africa, you have to "pay as you go" with data, and SAM is just a student. He doesn't have a job or anything yet and they don't do this widespread free wifi thing like what I get at college so... he only gets a little at a time and... every picture eats a chunk so just imagine the video stream. Sigh.
And that's the thing.
Long distance is hard, $2000 plane tickets are hard, but even worse is that we can barely afford to communicate. Seriously, how fcked up is that? That's probably the last 15 minutes I'll have with him today and maybe even tomorrow too. Every text, every picture, every video, every sound clip, every attempt to video chat all has a pricetag on it. I'm lucky to have someone willing to go through it all even if its hard & expensive. I think I'm lucky for that. SAM even got an iphone to make it easier, which fyi and iphone is an EXPENSE in South Africa, every little feature on the iphone costs money in South Africa. Instagram?!?! forget it! You better be a millionaire to afford to use instagram the way we do here in the states. I remember my friend using up like months worth of data in one night on instagram -___- shame.
But anyway, even though it's not perfect, it's still beautiful. I still love what we have and I wouldn't ask for anyone else. But I miss him so much, every day, I just miss him.
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