Episode 4: Now this Hennessy is gonna be the death of me

OOPS! Did I say Hennessy?
Definitely meant jealousy, but since you're here...
Let's talk about it!

I'm feeling down in the dumps today, so I want to share some of my favorite bits and pieces of SAM.

Back when we were in South Africa, I used to rant about this guy named Sbu! I'd be like Sbu took me here! Sbu's great! Sbu this, Sbu that, blah blah blah. And SAM was always just like.... why are you telling me this? Yeah, making this man jealous, didn't seem like the easiest thing in the world. 

But now! NOW it's a completely different story. 

 Now SAM is the kind of guy who will wave his friends over to say 'hi" to me and then quickly shoo them away for talking to me for too long. -_-

If I even tell him I'm going out? That's the end of the conversation. He wants ZERO parts of me going out, being around other guys, anything of the sort. And I have my own reservations about SAM being associated with girls who Study Abroad. C'mon, I'm American... I studied abroad... and look at me now -_-!! So many of you are probably like "Niomi, that makes perfect sense"

Well, when you are thousands of miles away from someone, being skeptical about them being around the opposite gender is a pretty tall order! To be quite frank, me and SAM are not IN a relationship, we HAVE a relationship, which are two completely different things. There are too many possibilities for other people (closer people) to walk in and out of our lives to set any real restrictions. So I guess we're technically:

 "NO STRINGS ATTACHED"

Well this is where it gets verrrrry interesting, Are you with me here?

How many guys, do you know are opposed to a "no strings attached' relationship? 

Show of hands? 

Probably ZERO or maybe 2 or 3 if they lied.

*The nature of our relationships these days are to be uncommitted, unattached, or say we are attached and then just not be faithful. and WHY do we do this? Because we don't know what to expect from each other and from life. We don't know who/ when/ or what the one is and we are doubtful of our own conscious ability to define it.

And I've been there too many times to count, so SAM? SAM has a free pass to roam around South Africa gettin' it (for lack of a better term), but he doesn't. And I don't know why he doesn't but there's something about this thing... this thing that we've built that makes it hard to see anyone else. So I'm saying even thousands of miles apart from each other SAM is more than willing, and even insists on us having somewhat of a "monogamous" relationship.

I'm floored.

I'm absolutely, 100% taken back by the idea that one guy wants to settle down here, in this world, with me ...& not with me, at the same time. And it might be hard to believe, but follow our story and you'll see just how true it is. I lay down my armor with him, I accept his jealousy as he accepts mine as a testament to the fact that I'm always in your corner, as long as you're always in mine. 

We may not be perfect yet ;] but check out how we communicate our differences! This was a riff we were having on my birthday! A little effort goes a long way ladies and gents!

So what's the verdict on jealousy guys? Healthy or Not? Is moderate jealousy a thing? Let me know! Comment and join the conversation. Orrrrrrr ....

Be the CURE! 

Help me and SAM get closer so we don't need to be jealous @ gofundme.com/goingthedistance ! ($5 is all it takes to change a life, and catch a dream)